Michael was desperately in need of his own children!

  by Helena on vindicatemj.wordpress.com

Knowing what a fantastic parent Michael turned out to be it is easy to understand his motives for keeping the company of children. Why can´t everyone see that in 1993 at the age of 35 he was desperately in need of his own kids? Practically obsessed with the idea? No babies were the reason why his true love for Lisa Maria Presley later came to an end and a yes—answer from Debbie was the reason why he married her instead of staying by his real love.

Men are probably less capable of understanding Michael´s feelings than women. Fathers generally grow fond of their children when their kids start talking and give them a chance to communicate and play games with, while Michael wasn´t that type of a man at all… If mothers had allowed their infants to stay in his private quarters I can easily imagine him cuddling the little ones and changing their diapers at night same as a woman would…

I think it is no coincidence that some boys in Michael´s surrounding LOOKED VERY MUCH LIKE HIM — remember Omar Bhatti and Jordan Chandler who were almost a complete replica of Michael? In the absence of his own children he was probably imagining himself as their father and adjusting to a daddy´s role as best as he could. In the loneliness of his life — where mannequins were his sole companions — the children who resembled himself gave him the illusion they were his close kin.

His manner with them was telling it all — when they wouldn´t behave he would get frustrated as he didn´t know how to handle their misbehavior (one of the maids spoke about it), while when they were ill or in need of help they would turn him round their little finger…. I´m not surprised Michael gave them pet names and even asked some to call him daddy — hearing a child saying that must have been a special treat for the man whose loneliness none of us is ever capable to imagine…

With a fatherly attitude like that could Michael ever harm a child? ABSOLUTELY NOT. Remember him saying he´d rather slit his wrists instead — and this was complete truth… The only thing you need to do to understand Michael Jackson is tune in to his wave length — it´s only then that you´ll be able to see what it is all about and start trusting him unconditionally.

The idea of having his own children was constantly on Michael´s mind as is clear from the inscription on one of the books found on his premises during a police search in 1993: “Look at the true spirit of happiness and joy in these boys´ faces. This is the spirit of boyhood, a life I never had and will always dream of. This is the life I want for my children.”

Or read the words he said about children as the essence of his life in the essay “My Childhood, My Sabbath, My Freedom” dated Dec. 07, 2000

“When I became a father, my whole sense of God and the Sabbath was redefined. When I look into the eyes of my son, Prince, and daughter, Paris, I see miracles and I see beauty. Every single day becomes the Sabbath. Having children allows me to enter this magical and holy world every moment of every day. I see God through my children. I speak to God through my children. I am humbled for the blessings He has given me.

There have been times in my life when I, like everyone, has had to wonder about God´s existence. When Prince smiles, when Paris giggles, I have no doubts. Children are God´s gift to us. No — they are more than that — they are the very form of God´s energy and creativity and love. He is to be found in their innocence, experienced in their playfulness.

My most precious days as a child were those Sundays when I was able to be free. That is what the Sabbath has always been for me. A day of freedom.

Now I find this freedom and magic every day in my role as a father. The amazing thing is, we all have the ability to make every day the precious day that is the Sabbath. And we do this by rededicating ourselves to the wonders of childhood. We do this by giving over our entire heart and mind to the little people we call son and daughter.

The time we spend with them is the Sabbath. The place we spend it is called Paradise”.

Thank you Helena for your generosity sharing your investigation!